AshlaSolo

I feel like I am headed for a breakdown And there are no bloody brakes involved Like a car on icy asphalt Just about to be dissolved The world ahead shifts from side to side And while it swirls I’m waiting for the crash Waiting for the end For it to be over in a flash Instead we ended up on railway track Mighty surprised and asking how –? No crash then But there will be now Everything is building up inside me I tell myself that no, I will not cry But I know I will No matter how I try

If dreams were not so distant Perhaps then we'd love to live Because if we cannot live for dreams What are we supposed to live for? If I put on a mask and fake a smile Will you still see the battle going on behind And if I keep saying that I’m fine Will it mean that I’ll survive? If I fake a smile and do my chores And if I find new things to do Will you believe that I still want to live Or will you still ask me how I feel? If dreams were not so distant Perhaps then I’d love to live I know how to keep myself alive Don’t try to interfere with social norms

If I were kind I would give you the stars If I were out of my mind I would lock you behind bars If I had wings I would fly you away If I had rings I would make you stay If I were a siren I would sing you a song If I were a queen I would force you to belong If I had died I would ask you to live If I had lied I would tell you to forgive But since my path is neither heaven nor hell I can do nothing before I am out of this cell

I was taught to be brave, to stare faith in the eyes But sometimes when I fall, I cannot always rise Even so I keep trying, but my smile is a fake I’m falling and falling, I’m a huge mistake Now I’m down on my knees, I’m broken and bleeding I’m begging for mercy, I’m silently pleading I’m not ready to give up, but I’m tired of clinging to hope Sometimes I want to scream, I consider cutting the rope Inside I’m empty, I’m the ghost of a shell I wander through days, I wander through hell

Her wings were purple and large when she spread them out They glowed in the dark, they evaporated doubt They filled everyone’s heart with joy and happiness For they knew that they were about to be blessed But even the brightest of stars will die And the strongest of man will break and cry She fell from her haven, her heaven, her home Gone is the comfort, the safety, the throne Her wings of purple and light have faded to grey And in her company no other will stay For gone is the light and blessings she used to share All that’s left is a creature that no longer cares

A warrior rattles into battle Following a steady rhythm of walking Together with the others Together with the others Killing those who are the enemies Slaying them upon his sword Without a second thought But when the dying screams have gone away The man behind the armor is awakened Sees the dying before his eyes The fading light in their eyes Slowly replaying the loss of life For someone else's paying Why all this slaughter?? Why all this killing?? What have those men done to you?? What have they done to earn your hatred?? Enough for getting killed so coldly

I welcome you, I welcome you dearly to hell I hope you'll find it comfortable and I hope that you will stay Try to keep all your limbs inside the boat and don't touch anything Don't make something reckless and don't sing Oh no, don't you worry about that noise But it's not like you have that much of a choice It's just a thousand people screaming in agony and pain Filling the air with a harmony of – what? No I'm not sane Do you think I would be here if I had a clear mind Because if so I can tell you that no one in hell is of that kind We have all been selected for a special reason by the devil himself And those who a

The reason to live in this unfriendly world Beyond my imagination lies curled There are moments both happy and sad Some even lovely or mad Some of these moments warm your heart Some of them will tear it apart Words can be both cold and true So can actions and that isn't new An ego the size of a planet you need To survive this populations greed Shout the loudest and be seen the most Paste yourself to a post The reason to live here is hard to find Maybe I'm trying too hard, searching me blind Whatever the reason the people forgot Living like this I think it's not This world lost the main reason That is close to

It has gone many years Too many to count All those memories The good and the bad All the happy and the sad I remember climbing in the trees I remember taking your cap I remember running on the grass I remember a well wrapped presernt I remember dinosaurs and catch the flag And I remember a pink note... and a white... I want to turn back the time Not to change the past Not to change the coming future But to be there To stay there And be with you again

I want someone to hold me With warm arms while I cry To hold me and say that it's all right And just to let it out But I'm afraid to ask Because they will wonder why I cry And will try to make it better But that's not what I need What I need is just to cry 'Cause I can't hold it in me Not any longer So instead of asking someone to hold me I cry alone in my room Until my head begins to hurt And my eyes begin to dry.